| - So Cold
Well the unexpected happened last night and I guess Im just in shock. Its what I was hoping would happen but felt that it was beyond reality. I was happy last night but I want to know that it wasnt just short term. I dont want to get hurt again. Well, I guess Ill just have to see how it goes.
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| Ive never felt more alive. Driving home from work today with the windows down, the cool air blowing across me makes me realize you only live once and to take full advantage. I think its time for me to cut lose. Thanks to all my true friends who were there for me and gave me the sound advice I needed to see that there is something better out there for me. Needless to say Im back on the market. Peace.
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| - Stab My Back
Sadly today's song fits right along with my life at the moment. I wish it didnt but there isnt anything I can do.
"Stab My Back"
Now we’re broken on the floor
She just wants me to share her
It hasn’t been this way before
She just wants me to dare her
The phone rings
And she screams
Stab my back
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
I can't get past her
Falling faster
True.
It hasn’t done a lot for you
And every time he held you close
Yeah, were you thinking of me
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you’re happy
The phone rings
And she screams
Stab my back
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
I can't get past her
Falling faster
True
It’s better when I bleed for you
I hope that love he gave you
Was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you’re tearing apart
Stab my back
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
I can't get past her
Falling faster
True
It hasn’t done a lot for you
It’s better when I bleed for you
It never was enough to do
It hasn’t done a lot for…. |
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| - Move Along
This song is giving me the energy I need to move on. My hope is gone, so why am I hanging on? Well time to start over, "Move Along."
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| There are no words to describe this feeling. Unbelievable pain is flowing through me to the point of explosion. I can't grasp the life I used to have that is being forced upon me once again. I was so certain that I was in a good thing for the long run only to realize that it was my previous misfortune all over again, only this time it was so deep that healing is beyond possible at this point in time. How can this be my luck yet again. Am I a bad person? Did I do something in some previous life so bad that I am still being punished for it? I will NEVER be the same person again. I think this has pretty much made me into a non trusting, insecure, jealous about everything, asshole. Believe me when I say that I have never invested more time, effort, money, and love into something that was so important to me only to have it ripped away by some unseen force that is out to get me. I don't know what to do or where to go. I am lost in this so called "good" life. There isn't anything that can heal the emptyness that has been bestowed upon me. I am forever marked with this anguish and may not be strong enough to make it through. God can only know what will become of me and what stupid, wrong choice I will make in the future. I'm done. |
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